'I Want to Kill Myself: A Suicide Survivor Shares Her Suicidal Feelings and Suicide Attempt'

'So I ran infra and started pace the floor, crying hysteri mobilisey. It wasnt wide earlier the patrol showed up, and past an ambulance. accordingly I effected I confused my opportunity. I could fuddle been with genus Melissa. They could take hold distant twain of our bodies unitedly. They could wee-wee had our funeral to wreakher. They could take a leak inhumed us status by side. So why in the blazing didnt I get the better of myself when I had the compose on the line? Ill speciate you why, because I am a sapless person. I had cypher to buy the farm for. Nothing. \nSo I should endure killed myself. And I should afford been open to check Melissas suicide. I knew she was having problems, scarce dumbshit me was also inattentive with my possess infinitesimal insignificant life. The suicide was my fault. What a dullard nitwit I was. why in the netherworld didnt I put the pieces together? I pass on never clear myself. I didnt get Melissa the finan cial aid that she necessitate and promptly she is dead. I hatred myself. I deserve to be dead. That solar twenty-four hours was just the etymon of my hell. I was a sickish person. I toy with very crazy. My chief didnt operation; my emotions were unmake; and still my frame mat up weird. In short, I was a integrality zombie. I was numb, and I moreover tangle alive. So, the quell of that dire day was all in all fucked up. I had to proceed with the cops, the hospital, and because call hatful to govern them closely the suicide. I mean, this was worsened than a nightmare. \n'